How old are you?
I turned 21 last November.


When did you become a cam model?
As soon as I turned 18 I signed up to MyFreeCams. Being a cam model was something I wanted to do for over two years prior to turning 18.


What made you decide to become a cam model?
Everyone has their list of turn ons and kinky ideas, being seen or watched by complete strangers is one of my many. Being a cam model, I not only get to do something that I’ve always been turned on by, but I can make a living off something I enjoy as well. I grew up extremely shy, and I still am for the most part besides being able to go on cam in front of thousands of strangers, but being a cam model has allowed me to slowly get out of my shell and be more actively social. It has allowed me to discover myself at a quicker pace than what would have normally been if I had not become one. In addition, I always knew there was a potential for me to open doors for myself into another thing I’ve always wanted to do but did not have the funds to do: Cosplay beautiful, vibrant, and fun characters 🙂


Are you into girls?
Yes :3


Planning on camming with any in the future?
I did, and have, but as of right now not anymore, especially after all my experiences. Many of you may know about them already. Maybe soon I’ll write about it as a blog post :).


Have you ever been with a girl?
Not sure if 3 weeks counts.


Where were you born?
I was born in Quebec.


Where do you live now?
I recently moved to New York City (Brooklyn to be specific) to live on my own. I did not plan on moving out this early but I was forced to for several reasons. The final straw was when my mother couldn’t accept me being bisexual, asking, “how can you like women?!”.

*Update* I have moved from Brooklyn to some place a lot closer to Manhattan :). It’s still not Manhattan, but it’s a lot more peaceful, safer, and I’m surrounded by really useful things that make my career a little bit easier to do as well.


How did that work out for you?
I literally had to start from scratch and it took me over a month to even find an apartment to live in. I didn’t rest for a single day of the week except for Sundays meeting with and talking to DOZENS of realtors, landlords, supers, and brokers. Not having any historical documents or papers to show for income such as W2’s and tax returns at the time made it very hard to get accepted anywhere. Thankfully, with a little bit of luck and a lot of struggle, anxiety, headaches, and hardships, everything worked out ^_^.

I lived with a friend during that month I was looking for an apartment. The journey towards finally getting one was hectic, stressful, and was a huge test of patience and perseverance for me. I had to go to bed every night not knowing if I would ever get a place to even start from scratch before the little money I had saved up from a couple months of camming would be depleted. Without exaggerating, I was literally outside 6 days a week talking to realtors, landlords, superintendents, etc. I was finally accepted into one thanks to a kind superintendent who gave me a chance despite my lack of paperwork.

I was happy to finally be able to start camming again. I knew I had to start from nothing (no furniture, no food, no fridge, no appliances, etc.) but I was happy to at least be able to start. I still remember that the first thing I did was order internet service to be hooked up as soon as possible so that I could connect with my laptop and ended up camming the first few weeks on the bare hardwood floor which left my shins with dark spots because I bruise VERY easily. The entire decision to move out was extremely risky, but I was confident in my camming and today I am glad I made the decision.

It just really sucks that I had to leave for over a month right when my MFC sessions were becoming extremely successful. When I returned to camming after getting my apartment, I had lost out on that momentum and many of my regulars. Today I am doing well, but so far I have not reached that same level I had before I was forced to run away, at least not yet.

*Update 04/07/17*
I still have not reached that momentum I started to gain on MFC 3 years ago when I first started, but my overall popularity and reach has grown to levels I never imagined. My dream of becoming someone who can entertain a wide audience and bring some sort of small happiness to the kind of people that stand where I use to stand has come one step closer. For that, I am forever thankful to my audience who has held my hand ever since.


Why did you choose Brooklyn?
It was the only place I had the one friend who would let me stay for as long as I needed to until I could start on my own again. It was an easy decision considering Manhattan has always been my favorite city and now I get to visit it whenever I want. Plus, Brooklyn is a hell of a lot cheaper to live in than Manhattan. Still, my dream is to someday move in to a Manhattan condo. I’ve always liked the atmosphere, the scenery, the pace, and activity level of New York City.


What about immigration issues?
*update 2016* I am now a U.S. Resident! The paperwork, the lawyer fees, the meetings, everything was extremely stressful for two years so it’s like a BIG weight off my shoulder to have that settled finally.


Favorite Food?
Sushi 🙂 (there’s also gnocci in pesto (gnocci al pesto for the Italian name for the fish), pizza, Italian in general ^-^, and desserts)


Any hobbies?
Outside of my career I am extremely passionate about cosplay.  I also watch Anime or play video games when I have nothing else to do, which never happens now a days now that I’ve given myself an even busier schedule than ever before. I don’t dislike it, I love being a cam model and entertainer. I also have a MyAnimeList account if anyone wants to check it out but I’m never active on it. I just use it to keep track of my shows.

*Update 04/07/17*
I’d like to believe I’ve successfully combined my hobbies with my career. Cosplay and a putting out Youtube videos showcasing my favorite things has become a big part of who Lana Rain is and by extension, my cam modeling as well. There are no words to express how happy I am that I’m able to make a living off the things I love. It gives me even more reason to have zero downtime and no reason to ever stop working, so I hope to dish out some entertaining and colorful content for you guys ^_^.

To be honest, the best way to get to know me is to get a better understanding of how I feel about everything and how I operate on a psychological level. This blog post in the following link is the best way to dive into my mind for those curious enough to read a wall of text:


  1. I only just happened upon your cosplay, among other things, and I’m already a huge fan! ^///^ I look forward to what you have in store for your audience, myself included~ <3

  2. Two questions:

    1. Are you still in Jersey City? Or am I confused?

    2. Do you do your own camera work/editing or do you/would you work with someone?

      • Wow. Much respect. I love your cosplay stuff on instagram. Never really seen your cam stuff but I’m sure it’s just as good. I’m sure I’m late to the game since I’ve only just discovered you but have you done any SFW cosplay photoshoots or videos?? What do you have planned to produce this year?


        If you’re ever looking for a JC based photographer/videographer/editor, do keep my in mind. I currently work for free, well for credit really. I did/do food photography and experimental film/editing. I have access to a super pro film/photo studio space in JC for very, very cheap. Parlay Studios. Check them out. Managed it for 3 years working on set for film, photo, and TV. Currently at a rental house in NYC so can definitely upgrade you from that Canon 1D. xD

        Yes I’m trying to sell myself here. Lol. But I’m sure you know the film and photo industry is a dog eat dog world and I’m just trying to get my piece out of it.

        Anyways, regardless of whether or not I get an opportunity to work with you, please never stop creating. Your fan base is epic and your work ethic and quality is an inspiration. Your story is real and I hope you find the most success in 2017!

  3. It’s nice to see you are still moving forward. The doujin is awesome by the way, but I am left wondering what is your involvement with it? Did you do the art, story or both?

    • I commissioned an artist to do the artwork. My friends Merryweather and Eightloaded did the storyboard together. Eightloaded was given the premise and story idea from me and Merryweather worked on the details of the storyboard since he’s the expert on how to best present such things (he works in that industry).

    • I’ve decided to cam on MFC from now on that’s why. I’ve also been off stream more often the past three weeks because I decided to focus more on my other projects for once (YouTube, ManyVids, etc.). In a few days I’ll be ready to get back into 4 days a week of camming again ^^

  4. Lana, you’re the best! I love watching your stream. I too am interested in camming and wanted to ask what camera you are currently using? I love how it focuses on you only and makes your beauty stand out! You are an inspiration to is girls!!!!

  5. you are super amazing! i’ve had an mfc account since 2012 but due to health problems (i was a stripper 18-24) I had to quit dancing and turned to camming so although i’ve broadcasted i’m still a baby cam girl hahaha. anyway, my website has my mfc on it. i LOVE YOUR BLOGGGGGG and overall your website and i’m jealous. i want to move to brooklyn and am ultra broke but hoping that changes since i’m camming full time. haha you’re so lucky i’m glad you worked hard and got there! i frequent your site here but i have no cam girl friends bc girls can be so much drama but if you’d like to be friends i’d love it hahaha. sorry if i’m lame.
    xo Abbie

    • First off, thank you :).

      Brooklyn is definitely one of the places to start in if you want to have a chance at finding an affordable place for the size and quality, just gotta grind through dozens (if not hundreds -_-) of landlords and apartments. A 700 sq ft can be anywhere from $1100-1600. My old one in Brooklyn was $1300 for 700 sq ft. I literally had a 5 ft by 5 ft area to film my videos in my bedroom due to all my appliances, electronics, equipment and wardrobe :(. I’m in a new place now and I more than doubled my sq ft ^-^ but it costs a lot and I plan on only staying in this one for about 3-5 years before investing in a condo somewhere nearby (that’s IF I continue to grow).

      I’m always open to meeting people in the industry and making connections/relationships but it’s always hard to keep up or connect with anyone these 3 years because I’m always busy and almost never have time for myself (averaging 2-3 hours a week of free time, because most of my OTHER “free time” I tend to use up on progressing or catching up on projects).

      I consider GoldenGoddess a very dear friend of mine and I’m really grateful she’s been very understanding about how little we talk or see each other since we’re so busy. Any friends I make will have to keep that in mind :(. It’s also why I’ll probably be single for a long ass time haha!

      – Lana

      • Girrrl, I’ve been single for many years and I plan to be for many more!!! But I’m sorry I JUST saw this. Haha. I’m sure you’re busy! Since I’ve begun seriously camming I have no time for anything! And Thank you for the reply, sorry I’m so late, I just assumed you weren’t going to.. I dunno why! But I adore you and wish you good luck! As if you need it ;D kidding, we all need it. And I was told Brooklyn by my sister who lives in Manhattan! She has no room or I’d stay with her. I’ve been searching for someone to let me stay with them and pay rent until I can get my own place. Preferably a fellow cam model and if I remember correctly that’s what you did, yes?? And you’re crazy for moving from Canada here. I have always wanted to do the opposite! Actually I’m the crazy one. Welcome (belated) to being a US citizen too! But anyway thank you for your reply. And I’ll keep supporting you! Also, I’d love to read more about your life (I’m a creeper I love writing and reading blogs) so I hope you keep updating it honey! Yeah the time/friend thing I totally get. My best friends (two of them) and I hardly talk but its known we love each other and it’s not on purpose bc we would love to talk all day if we could. But real friendships endure that (: so GoldenGoddess and you are actually a true friendship then, and its special/rare (: Sorry my message is so sloppy and all over the place. My mind is.

        lovelove, Abbie
        PS- if you ever want a short term roommate that will pay bills and has family/friends in NYC (so isn’t all dependant) just know I would totally love that! hahaha.

  6. Your story is very inspiring.

    Found you by a coincidence. And, not sure if this is a compliment, but you are quite different from others. Of course everyone cares about camscore and tippings, it’s your livelihood!! But the fact that you take the time to get to know your fans, and love what you do and not afraid to express them. Your gleefulness is contagious (>W<)

    You are quite something. Moving out by yourself to brave the world. That's one of the hardest steps in life, and you took it not by choice, yet you do with such courage.
    So eh….dang I suck at ending. Keep it up?! Best of luck? Ganbatte?! Haha(^_^)

    • Aww, thank you! That was a really inspiring and encouraging comment. I really really really really love my fans, especially those who have stayed close to me for such a long time. Since I have pretty much almost zero time outside of all my work, I’ve never really had time to make friends in my area but instead I’ve made good friends with a tightly knit circle of my supporters ^-^. And they’re all I need.

      It was really scary when I had to move out. I never really solved every single IRL problem that stemmed from that up until recently so now I’m really happy and can focus solely on my work and passion projects. Expect a bit of evolution over the next two years since I’ll be juggling more stuff than just camming and cosplay now .

  7. I saw one of your streams on chaturbate and loved it! It was cool seeing your other stuff with cosplay and things beyond your cam-girl profession. Was wondering if you were thinking of going to nycc or any cons in the area? And if so, is it awkward to ask for a picture? ^^; Thanks for the hard work you put into everything for your fans. 🙂

  8. I just wanted to point out that it’s not “gnocci in pesto”, it’s “gnocchi al pesto”
    Keep up the nice work 🙂

    • True.
      But if we’re using fully English context without using terminology or names of actual dishes, they are gnocchi, in pesto sauce, hence, “gnocci in pesto”. I wasn’t trying to call the dish that, it was descriptive use.

      Thank you for the comment ^_^.

  9. Hello Lana!
    I wanted to PM you but i can’t find your mail so i’ll post here. 😀
    A few days ago i saw your video on kin8tengoku and you were really cute so i googled your name because i was curious and that’s how i found your website haha
    What a surprise though, you are into cosplay and anime! How can you be so cool? lol it’s even better when i found out that we are the same age.
    I wanted to ask if you will do more videos with kin8tengoku or another JAV company, it seemed like you had some genuine orgasm during the video and it was awesome.
    By the way, i’m a huge anime fan too so is it possible to see your myanimelist profile? i can’t find it :p

    Have a nice day!

    • It depends. Here’s my response to someone else who said the same thing:
      But if we’re using fully English context without using terminology or names of actual dishes, they are gnocchi, in pesto sauce, hence, “gnocci in pesto”. I wasn’t trying to call the dish that, it was descriptive use.

      “Gnocci al pesto” is an Italian name for a dish, there is no “al” in English.

      Thank you for the comment ^_^.

    • Already explained, gnocci AL pesto is the actual name of the DISH, Gnocci IN pesto isn’t me giving it a term or a dish name thats literally what it is, its gnocci IN pesto sauce. This has already been explained in the other comments. There’s a dish in foreign countries with specific names but you wouldn’t necessarily call them, especially to a stranger, by their country’s given name. You’d call it something like “beef marrow soup” or whatever it is that describes it.

      For the record, I grew up Italian with an Italian family and Italian parents who speak Italian and a mom who’s obsessed with cooking and making Italian dishes.

  10. Hey, Lana…
    Tokyo Ghoul, hm? Cute, i’ll try to get you that collection, asap, just because i love it too, but what about Berserk? Why did you liked it? It’s surely on my top 3 anime, but i never felt more angry as Guts in the end of the ’97 anime, kkkk, that dude went through a total shitstorm, and what does he gets? Gf gets raped, okay then, moving on. Do you play guitar? I mean, i saw maybe a classic Fender, and my favorite, that sugar white Ephiphone Les Paul, and i thought, “damn… what a beautiful creature with a taste none other than the best.” And i mean, in everything, i gotta say, you’re one of a kind. I know that now you might be thinking that im the weirdest, but, yeah, if you knew me, you’d notice that i speak with my eyes, words can be empty, and… there are better things to do with our mouth… Like singing, i like to sing. What were you already thinking? Sex? Oral Sex? Yeah, that too, i just love it, there is no better vision than one of a woman turning their eyes back of pure pleasure.. yup, good things in life indeed.. Like you on that Asuka cosplay, hmm, your lips, your eyes, your body… its tempting… the way you look in that video, i don’t know, maybe because it was the first ones i saw, maybe, the second video i saw, and, especialy after the warm up, its a crime, you know? Many weak-hearted will fall, parish there with a big perverted smile on they’re face kkkk
    But, oh well, it’s the first here on your website, it’s amazing, a very good job, i love it, and… i don’t know, but of course you’ve already thought of it, but i’ll say it anyway, a donate button, sunshine, a donate button on the site would be good too, it’s not exagerated, i mean, the other sites with they’re sistems of tokens and even a donate button too, but, hey, this is your site, so, why not? I’d put a tip for sure. Hope you’re doing good, stay safe and don’t stress up, ok? 2/3 hour a week for yourself cannot be good, so, try to think about it, will you? Take care of thouse beautiful eyes, body, mind and soul. Im no one, but i care. (:

    • For vids? It’s $350 per 5 min for custom vids. I only ever offer these during contests I want to win but if it’s tipped in the form of tokens on mfc I allow it.

  11. Hey Lana, I was wondering were you into the trap or crossdressing genre. Cause I seen your death the kid cosplay and was wondering did you every think of doing a gay video, like a boy being feminized.

    • I am, and I’ve thought about it ^_^. It’s somewhat in my plans, but I just have a long list of other things right now. I’d say within the next few months for sure :).

  12. Hey! I was wondering if there is an account i could send you a draw … since i don’t use twitter or instagram… not sure if its fanart… im a fan tho… but lets go with portrait.
    Apart from that, good job! Love your youtube channel, what type of equipment you use for your videos?

    • Just email it to my email address I have listed on the bio/info box on my Twitter. I use a CANON DSLR. And thank you, I’m glad you’re liking my youtube ^_^.

  13. Hi Lana I’ve been a fan now for only a handful of months now. I was the one that mentioned the convention in April (tekkoshocon in Pittsburgh PA). I’m a carpenter turned chef turned cosplay prop maker that in the midst of being a sushi chef is trying to get my cosplay prop career going and would like to offer you a prop of your request for free (within reason I’m not an extremely wealthy chef haha :(. If it’s to your liking I just ask that you spread the word or recommend me. I can send pics of things I’ve designed or have in the works. I’m willing to take on any job. Sorry I had to message you here couldn’t figure out another way lol. Keep doin what your doing, love the more automata playthrough.

  14. I’m really glad to have found this page where I got to read a bit more about you. I’ve also recently been introduced to your YouTube videos after playing Nier and finding your unboxing video. I was really surprised to know you had a YouTube channel since I knew about your camming beforehand, and I’m really glad I did because I find you have a very wonderful personality.

    It’s also a huge surprise to find out and read about your personal life and struggles. It’s amazing how still to this day people can still be homophobic, and still struggle to understand each other unable to look beyond their misconceptions.

    I’m really thankful for this page because of those reasons I mentioned above… I doubt I’ll ever get the opportunity to have a conversation with you, but being given the chance to have more insight into who you are, why you cam, and what you’ve been through really helps me shed some light on how much of an amazing person you really are.

    As cringey as this will sound… I think you’re quite amazing from a very childish crush kind of way. Don’t worry, I’m not going to be creepy and stalk you in any way, I just wanted to impart that I think you’re an amazing person with a lot of passions and interests that I find quite endearing.

    I just hope that you know how amazing I believe you are, and to tell you to always believe and have confidence both in who you are and what you do… because I’m quite smitten by what you do, and I’m sure I’m not the only one.

    As a fellow Canadian, and just a stranger I’d like to wish you the very best of luck in whatever you do in life.

    I hope you find success in whatever you do, and your life continues to improve every day as it goes by.

    Don’t be afraid to be the person you want to be most of all… as your life is evident that there will be people who will help you, and be there for you.

    Once again, the very best of luck~

    • Aww, thank you so much for that. I can feel so much sincerity in your words too ^_^. Thank you. Your words were extremely encouraging and I’m seriously overwhelmed. I hope you go for your ambitions and find success as well. I like to think I’ve developed some really good foresight and I can tell you’re a wonderful person, so I wish you luck as well.

  15. I love you very much Lana rain,I can see you have a littel lascivious.I have a question,What is your concept of love?
    If you have a husband,do you hate him to dislike you when you seduce man?
    Do you think the loyalty of marriage is spiritual, not related to the body?
    Make money to each other to satisfy the sexual desireis is right or not?

  16. Hello Lana,

    after a reading of your bio on your site i want to send you this :c

    I discovered you about 3 years ago on CB, like many people I liked your cams (you was shy??? T_T seriously?!)

    Then about a year ago I started to be jealous 😡 “why so much success” “why she gets all these tips ??” “Why she seems to manage her life so well” “why she is beautiful, flourishes, passionate and she has all that” “everything looks easy for her !!” “Why this and why ???” (really u.u and more, much more)

    I imagined rich parents who gave you your money to buy you everything you had, a spoiled girl,
    in short: I was a big –>asshole<– who judged the appearances,
    even if I looked at you during your cams, I continued to judge and envy you

    I have never insulted you or anybody else but have judged you gratuitously by imagining a lot of shit
    and now im reading the life you have passed I feel stupid and wicked, and wnat to apologize T_T

    continue your journey and say you that: even assholes who judge you, can change (like me …. after 3 years -_-)

    Ps: I don't know if it's you who does all your videos, photos, decorations of your pages but great job o.o (i tried the cams 1 year ago but so strange to be observed ;_; and the reccord of bot..maybe one day i try again with more confidence)

    Kiss from a sorry and old…new again…and fucking strange fan 😵 Avichaï 😡
    hope to talk with you shortly and to know you better (sorry I am French and I used a translator because the text was long ;p hope my message was still understandable)

    • Wow really? That’s pretty crazy then, but I’ll really really happy someone changed their mind. I don’t think I’m anything great but I don’t think there’s anything anyone should hate me or dislike me for either. I don’t bother anyone and I keep to myself and just focus on my career. Thank you for being so honest and up front to the point of taking the time to write me this message 🙂

      And of course, thank you for the encouragement. It’s not such a bad world if people can admit to their judgmental ways and reach out to better understand others. Most people would just try to stick to their original analysis of someone even when they see all the reasons to change. Thank you.

      And yes, I am in charge of, and do everything, for all of my content. My website’s first design was from a friend, the current design is from me. I do 98% of my photoshoots color grade. About half of my photoshoots are shot by me with a tripod using either a remote shutter or use a timer. My videos are all filmed by me and color graded by me. They’re all edited by me as well ^_^. That’s why I barely ever have time to do anything else other than focus on my career. I have many goals and ambitions and I hope to reach it within my lifetime. I also hope to change more people’s minds if there’s others out there who think negatively of me for whatever reason.

  17. Hey Lana! I saw you for the first time at MFC yesterday. And you are the most beautiful model there at least in my opinion. Then, when I read your profile, I was amazed by your life story. From infatuation, it turned into admiration. You went out of your way to do things you want to do. And you did it with confidence. Most models are embarrassed with their choice but you don’t. You made me a fan of you. I wish I could create an account just to support but I guess it’s region locked in my country. Been going to MFC as a guest. I hope I can meet you someday maybe at 2018 NY comicon since I will be visiting the United States next year. Hopefully, I see you there! Anyway, thank you for being who you are and always remember that there are people like me who are rooting for you. Cheers to you!

    • Thank you so much for that really heartwarming and extremely encouraging message :).

      And sure! Just lemme know when it’s you if you ever do come, I’m actually looking forward to it. It would be interesting to see if despite the year and a half long gap we still get to meet at Comic Con.
      Remember, its people like you that I even pursued a career in entertainment and wanting to grow as something more than who I was back then :).

      • Holy… I never thought you’d actually reply but you did anyway. I guess I’ll add this to the list of things that made me like you.

        Anyway, I figured that Comicon would be the best place to meet you since we both like the same hobbies and stuff. And yes! I am looking forward to meeting you there as well. It would make my trip to the States worthwhile. I’ll let you know if I am able to come since I still have to deal with the visa. I don’t know how though but I’ll try to message you somewhere. And I sincerely hope we do become friends.

        Thanks for the reply! Stay awesome Lana!

  18. Best of luck for 2017! I hope you make more vlogs! I was wondering what the song was at the end of your first vlog? It was really pretty, just like you!

  19. Show their your bio, they will change opinion quickly x3

    really ?_? Why do you do all that alone???
    You can ask a loved one to hold the camera, decorate your blog a little or to help you for your cosplays o.ô
    or even to pay you an assistant, you would save time (time is money), you would be more relaxed and you would have someone near you during your ascent ;p, or a simple cameraman/blogger not too expensive and so there ^-^

    anyway since you intend to continue in your passions and to improve you can not escape this and you will have to have an assistant at least to hold your blog, think of it right away among your friends, entourage or moderators ;p

    lot of us start alone, and i’m sure you know you can’t make aaaaaallll your work alone indefinitely T_T

    • I use Bad Dragon cum lube because they are the absolute best at how real it looks and it’s consistency. It also doesn’t have a terrible smell or taste like others do. Lastly, it’s organically safe.

  20. Hi Lana,i recently discovered your channel and i must say that you are simply amazing,i can say that you are the cutest girl i ever saw. I wish you all the best with your work 🙂

  21. has being into anime colored your attraction to girls in a particular way such as traits you have preference for?

    jk. ignore that question.
    I’m so glad to read that you’re so into anime and cosplay. I would love to start cosplaying but i’m really scared of messing it up and having angry nerds socialmediabash me for getting it wrong somehow. On top of that I looked at some of your cosplay; you’re so good at it! you even cosplayed Kirino, which means you’re my fav cosplayer now (Kirino is the character who got me hooked into anime/manga since i wanted to be like her. Some role model huh?).
    Anyways, do you have advice for someone who wants to start cosplaying?

    • Haha, I never thought Kirino would be anyone’s role model but it depends how you look at it, cuz, she definitely doesn’t take shit from no one and she’s strong willed yet kind to the people she loves. Oreimo was an amazing show 🙂

      I would say it helped me SEE what traits I would like in girls for sure. Anime showed me I prefer headstrong, high will powered girls who exude those traits with a certain attitude or “aura”.

      I think you should just cosplay and not worry too much so you can gain the experience first. You can worry about accuracy later :).

        • sorry, i’m always unneccesarily talkative even after i’ve said what i thought is all i had to say.
          was gonna say that i relate to anime bringing my preferences out to me. Being trans, I don’t really get a consistent positive response from people i talk to, even in the relatively liberal anime and video game mainstream, but i kind of feel safe speaking to you. IDK if you have any idea how much reading through your bio, i related to your experiences. My experiences sure weren’t as harsh, but seeing your story really makes me feel hopeful in a dream of a decent enough life. i’ve had to both burn so many bridges, and so many people have burned their bridges to me… it’s… meh. i’m rambling. it’s nothing compared to your journey in life.

          but really, thank you. for more than just advice and responding.


  22. Hi! I stumbled upon your NieR story analysis video (Spot on, by the way!) while the Automata soundtrack was on autoplay and I found my way here, and I have to say I find your story so amazing and inspiring! My fiance did a similar move just at the beginning of this year from the other side of the country to here in NYC for school and it’s heartwarming seeing people chasing their dreams and finding success. Major props to you, too, I had no idea you were a camgirl, and I imagine that’s a lot of hard work! I was also wondering if you go to any non-convention cosplay-friendly events like Sakura Matsuri in Brooklyn, ’cause I’m planning on making an Emil head and I’d love a photo if you wore 2B out there!

    • Hi, thank you for checking out my NieR Automata story analysis video on Youtube. That one took a looooot of work xD. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to make it to the Sakura Matsuri this year but I’ve always been wanting to go. I have to visit my mom back in Canada for a week and a half sometime around the end of April. It really depends on if I go at the end of after April. If it’s after, then I’ll be able to go for sure since I’ve always wanted to go the last 2 years and never got around to.

      Thank you for your the supportive an encouraging feedback and for taking the time to check out my website. A lot of these posts need revamping or correcting xD. If I do go this month, I’ll let you know in the email you provided to leave that comment so that we can see each other for that photo ^_^.

      May you and your fiance stay super happy as a couple.

  23. I first found your cosplay 2B cosplay in Facebook and i didn’t even know you were a cam girl still from all of the cam girls i see aside from being naughty XD you seem to be the most grounded and the most passionate on what you do and hearing your story made me a fan and respect you more as a person i hope this goes well for you and i’ll be sure to support you as a fan in the future ^^

    • Thank you so much for that and your really thoughtful sentiments. I’m happy that you think all of that ^_^. Don’t feel obligated to, but if you do choose to help support one day, my current fans and I would welcome you openly :).

  24. 中国网民之一向lana rain 女士致敬!您的视频在国内大受欢迎!但也有人利用这些谋利,希望在您的网站早日建成!
    I’m a Chinese.So I had a poor grammar.And I have to use Baidu Translate to finish this reply.First,your bideo was so popular in China!Most of my classmates love you and your video XD. However,Some people use them to made money.So we hope your wedsite can completed at an early date!

  25. I just realized you were that girl cosplaying Madoka Magica at the Liberty City Anime convention lol. I was skimming through my photos I took of there and thought there was a similarity between you and what I saw on the internet.

    • I believe we talked for a bit while in line or something, I was the guy with the long hair wearing the green tie black dress shirt & jeans. Do you make the cosplay yourself? They look well done and gorgeous!

      • No I would have noooo chance to have the time to even make them. I work a really really tight schedule, sometimes going over 20 hours very frequently before I even head to bed. I buy all of my cosplays or I commission them from amazing cosplay creators if I can’t find a good quality one.

        I can’t say I remember >.< sorry. But I might remember if I ever saw you again. I'll be trying to open up time for as many big nearby conventions in the tri-state area this year so if you go to NYC Comic Con for example I'll 100% be there ^_^.

        • Ahh I see. How about during the karoke with the latin guy as DJ, I was with the old black guy cracking jokes with him, Remeber that? hahaha.
          Small world huh, it feels strange thinking back at it now. Gonna be hopefully participating in this years convention too! & with a cosplay this time & with my friend 😛

          • Still nope >.< I have VERY bad memory anyway and when it comes to people, even celebrities I repeatedly see in multiple movies, I tend to forget or not recognize until someone tells me. I'm just very bad with the human face. I'm sure a normal person would have at least some inkling of that memory. Yeah its crazy how many people end up recognizing me in the street. I'm not even that popular, not at all tbh. Looking forward if I ever see you again ^_^. Be sure to say hi!

  26. I’m glad my friends here are fans of yours. I got to find out more about you. Truthfully, this is the first time I’ve heard of you. Since, I’ve been on and off with my passions. I’ve read everything you wrote here and even watched your youtube video of Nier Automata. I love how you analyze the story of the game and I find you very inspiring. I hope in the near future, I can have as much strength as you had. I’m on my way to pulling the last straw myself.

    • First off, thank you for taking the time to comment and for checking out my NieR Automata analysis vid ^_^

      I hope you achieve your goals. The simplest way I can put it is: You have to want it REALLY BADLY enough. I’m sure if you do, you’ll do what it takes to get there. Just don’t hurt your loved ones as you go ^_^ take care.

  27. This night I have a nightmare ;_; you comeback on cb, and i talk to many, and….you bann meeeee

    srsly in the real life im almost normal xp when when you comeback!!

  28. Why lot of many people on cb (or other) not understand: the secret its “love what you make” -_- if you not love that, we not love that, so fcking simply, and they ask again “why i not have viewers”

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