To Do List: January 2017

– Try to win the MV Queen 2017 title on the ManyVids awards.
– Complete the finishing touches on the changes of this website and clean up old information wherever I can find them
– Finish Editing Upcoming B-Tier
– Publish 2-3 more Youtube videos for the month (one has to be a vLOG, another has to be my Japan Crate for January)
– Finish recording vocals for the personal amateur documentary I’ve been working on since September
– Reconstruct the storyboard of my documentary
– Finish color grading some scenes for that documentary
– Put together and edit the documentary
– Learn more cooking (because living and working alone is a bitch for diet)
– Begin color grading 2016 NYC Comic Con pictures
– Begin color grading 2016 DragonCon pictures
– Prepare A-Tier script and storyboard for February
– Try to workout four days a week to prepare for 2B, Zero, and Kaine cosplays
– Continue to aggressively advertise for NieR Automata

In regards to the ManyVids annual contests, I had a hard time thinking about whether or not I should submit myself into other categories as well, particularly the “Rising Star of the Year” and “Innovator of the Year”. On top of that, I was auto-submitted into the “Vid of the Year” since my first S-Tier public flashing video has been #1 sold on there for the past 6-7 months now.

For me, I can argue for “Rising Star” since I only started selling vids on MV in March of 2016 (just 10 months ago), steadily rose to #1 MV Score and stayed there ever since, as well as winning #1 every month for 7 months straight now. I also won 57 days out of the first 62 of the ManyVids Daily Grind contest and a majority of the next two months of Daily Grind after that thanks to a handful of super dedicated supporters who wanted to keep the performance going.

As for “Innovator”, I believe that not only has my content allowed me to reach a ceiling never before reached on MV, but it has initiated a surge with it’s style and format within the industry. I’m not saying people are copying off of me, but like many others including some fellow performers have pointed out, there have been obvious influence shown in other people’s work that was never seen prior. I don’t want to offend anyone or cause any drama so I’ll make it clear right now that in no way am I saying that elements of my work have not been done before. I’m simply saying it was never popular in this industry until after I made it work, and, if we’re referring to my specific format and certain specific elements, I can say there really weren’t any. Furthermore, I’m quite okay with influencing others’ work, after all, this is how growth and improvements occur within a creative ecosystem, by taking what works and improving upon it over time through diversity and competitiveness. (Though this is not to say, like many peers have expressed to me, that there aren’t a few specific persons out there who have gone out of their way to blatantly clone my ideas down to the smallest details, with little or no diversity. You know who you all are.)

Unfortunately, I don’t want to hurt my chances of being chosen for MV Queen. According to the rules of the contest, the top 5 in every category will move on to the final rounds and the MV Staff will perform an inhouse vote to decide who they think is most fit for each title. I am confident I can achieve top 5 in multiple categories if I submit myself, but since I do not know if the voting is done via a blind test or not (ie: no one knows who other staff members are voting for or if it’s discussed openly as a group) I won’t take the risk. More importantly, I can truly and personally understand the concerns of a business platform in their position that they may not want to choose the same winner for more than one or two categories, nor would I hold it against them.

WHY is the MV Queen 2017 title so important to me? For me most of all, titles and contests of ego and preconceived illusions of prestige mean nothing, so why does this one matter to me? Well, there are many reasons but I’ll share just the most important one today: 2016 was an important year for me, not just because of my burst of success in ManyVids and other areas, but because of the MULTIPLE and incredible problems I’ve had for years in my personal life that I was finally able to solve and repair. And I did it all while working my ass off even way more than I always have. I’m looking back and I have no idea how I got through it. What I do know is that there were so many people who held my hand through it. This “win”, this title I want, it can be something to embody the efforts and sentiments of everyone who has involved themselves with the struggles of this amazing team behind me.

Those who have been a part of my fanbase/support group/friendly circle for a long enough time already know: I never get comfortable. When I reach a new ceiling for myself, I never stop trying to get higher. In fact, I become even more curious, more motivated, and more enthusiastic. Last year I reached new heights thanks to the amazing customer support at ManyVids who were very understanding and welcoming to me despite my shortcomings and personal IRL problems at the time. Whenever I had a question or concern about how to work the site, they were there to respond unlike many (MOST) platforms in this industry. Their welcoming attitude is the reason I feel at ease in working hard (I feel shaky and limited in my creativity with the suffocating rules set forth on Chaturbate for instance). Since then, many doors have opened up and I see many more that have not been pried open yet. This year, 2017, I hope you’ll all curiously continue to watch along with me as we find out what lies behind those doors.

Thank you for everything until now. I am absolutely nothing without all of you.